5/6/12

So I am currently stood in my hotel room, topless infront of the mirror. Getting worked up at my body so my anxiety and fears stay away. In less than 12 hours I shall be in hospital getting ready for surgery. I am so scared it is untrue and I still do not know why!!! I can not wait for this time in 24 hours. All done and probably asleep. Im about to go and get the last shower I am allowed for a few days. Had chinese for tea as I am addicted and again last meal for quite a while. Unsure how mum is feeling. Had a small chat about it but think finding it hard which is understandable :( Wish me luck x